Full-Blown Agony: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Cynthia Patel
Cynthia Patel

A passionate writer and mother sharing her experiences and advice on family life in Canada.

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